¨G.M.¨

the lights grew dim and the air grew colder
there´s no self esteem and it can´t go lower
all i ever wanted was a brand new world
a place without the hunger and without the war

yes, all i ever wanted was to be someone
someone she could be proud of, yeah, to be that son
but she wanted a scroll, and my face on a frame
and all i ever dreamt of was of fortune and fame
i got out of high-school and didn´t bother about college
i had my band, the groupies, and i thought the knowledge

i could´ve been doctor, lawyer, anything i wanted
but i wanted the easy way, and to be most wanted
i went to mexico, and started digging for riches
and i spent it all on the rent, the food, and the bitches
and ambitious as i am, i just wasnt´t content
i had to have more than just ragdolls and rent

so a homie came up; we knew each other from little
he offered me a great pay selling drugs to morritos
i said ¨fuck ´em, let´s do it, i want out of the hood,
take my ass to a nice place and don´t ask the price of the food¨
i had nice clothes, bling, girls, money, and cars,
and homes, i´m not lying, i even had golden bars

but then one day i got a call from a woman, and that
changed everything, she said grandma is ill pretty bad
so for the first time in ages, my feet touched the ground
my heart pounded with fear, that lost sensation was found
and like the sound of a shot gun, a screaming reached my ears
it was none other than me crying out in fear
for the only human being whom i loved like no other
was my grandma who loved me like my own mother
she found me lying down while i was gasping for air
and loved me and cared when i was lost in despair
she is my hero, my eternal muse, and my saviour
she was carrying me when i just couldn´t walk any farther
she was the strongest person, she was my mother and father
she only lived to see me become something great
i was her proud and joy, but i realized a bit late

all i wanted was to simply make her smile,
i was going to buy her a house that extended for miles
she would never lack anything, always food on the fridge
and have maids who would cook it, and be rubbing her feet
she would always be well, and never have to cross the street
but she would always invite the homeless kids over to eat

and so i couldn´t do anything to make her proud
i couldn´t even tell her that i loved her out loud
but she never saw any of that in me
she saw the most perfect little boy there could be
so she held me close and whispered something in my ear
i don´t remember what it was but my eyes filled with tears
she said i love you son, and i am proud of who you are
then smiling she closed her eyes and passed away in m arms.



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